Wow; Within My Deep Introspection, I Found The Answer & Acceptance Too
Shamanic Energy Medicine
I was having a chat and a tea at the burger van I’ve been visiting regularly in recent months.
All part of my ongoing transition and healing rehabilitation after months of intense clearing.
When a local car dealership employee rocked up in a highly vibrant small metallic pink car.
As he approached I said; “blimey what do you call that colour mate, its certainly interesting”.
With a broad smile on his face he replied in a none to complimentary tone “shit, throwing me the keys and saying here check it out for yourself” which brought a big, broad smile to my face too as we exchanged a high five.
The guy then proceeded to place his order, whilst I became immediately aware that the proprietors energy had changed and cooled completely with and in that very moment.
Once pink car man had his order and driven off, the proprietor said to me “Baz let people place their order you jumped right in there, these guys only have 10 minutes”.
I on my part immediately apologised, hopefully not showing just how taken aback by this I was, but I can tell you my spine did shrivel and considerably and why wouldn’t it?
After all I’d simply been the real me, a very open, very generous and very pleasant guy who’d certainly not intended to compromise anyone’s liquidity and/or expeditiousness.
That said and in truth part of me was horrendously embarrassed that I’d some how over stepped the mark, whilst another part felt deep hurt by the challenge to my authenticity.
Nevertheless we chatted for several more minutes as I wrestled internally with that which had unfolded, for I knew there was a powerful healing message in all this for me.
Such that and at the point three further customers arrived on the scene I deliberately withdrew into the background, before extending my regular pleasantries upon leaving.
For I knew I had no time for a second cup of tea today, because I had some very deep work to do upon myself, indeed deep healing work that really had to start immediately.
Working With My Power Animals Opens Doors Within My Inner Wisdom
Just how did I know there was a message here for me? Well as I drank my tea some minutes before the guy arrived in his pink car, crow visited and told me to be aware.
At first when crow arrived I was inclined to say to the proprietor now that is auspicious, I think it would be a good idea on your part to make a generous offering to crow.
However crow was quick to tell me that he wasn’t there to speak to the proprietor he was there to speak to me and clearly there to prepare me for the veil about to be lifted.
That said; as I attempted to engage further with crow, he was most insistent that I walk away with him for it was time to leave now, for all things had and where still changing.
Well clearly I didn’t walk away with crow and the reasons, well I’m not always 100% confident in my shamanic awareness and if I’d chosen to walk away, how would I learn?
Net result; well, I was presented with an opportunity to learn, evolve and heal and whilst not a great start to my day, it’s always best to heal and release that which needs healing.
Nevertheless; I am immensely grateful for the intuitive insights and warnings provided by my power animals in all my daily healings for their wisdom is often breathtaking.
That said; I don’t often discuss my power animals on this blog for we have a bond based upon sacred trust, respect and oneness towards the work we do and I honour that daily.
However if you’re interested in understanding more about the immense power of one of my key animal totems i.e. Crow, this is one of many nice sites worth visiting [ here ]
Distancing Myself From “The Old Not Really Me” and My Sense of Rejection
Now there was a time when an incident such as this really would have wobbled me, such was the magnitude of my imperious and seemingly endless sense of low self esteem.
Not these days however, result none of the; “how dare you, poor me scripts of old”, simply a recognition that my holographic reality had shown me a very powerful message.
Which in truth is an incredible healing place to be, for yes it does hurt and that hurt requires introspection and self love to heal, albeit healing which brings forth freedom.
And in that place of freedom we are able to sense and see our selves for what we really are, which means taking complete responsibility for all our self limiting feelings et al.
Therein; I know my friend the proprietor wasn’t having a pop at me, nor was he saying anything other than that which he believed would aid his business and fair play to him.
What’s more I on my part have no drive or desire to compromise anyone’s business, for my way is to support and to help fellows souls and their businesses in any way that I can.
Which is why I spent a great deal of time unraveling the message in this situation, for in doing so I released and prohibited any self limiting blocks manifesting deep within me.
In Connecting With My Inner Child, I Unraveled My Clear Energetic Block
Therein; I pondered this incident from a myriad angles in particular looking for that deep within me which clearly desired acknowledgement, releasing and energy healing.
Whereupon and after detailed examination of similar more subtle calls to heal over recent weeks e.g. move away from the van Baz, let the dogs see the hare lads etc.
It dawned upon me that this incident wasn’t unique it was indeed all part of something deep within me crying out to be heard, which I was hearing but not currently healing.
After several journeys and much work on this matter it became very clear to me that the real issue was my own sense of aloneness and overriding desire for companionship.
Indeed a very natural mortal preoccupation to be part of something, to be seen and to feel that ones life not only has meaning but that ones able to validate that life too.
Therein; I’d clearly been using that pit stop as some sort of surrogate community, and whilst not to the detriment of the proprietor clearly I’d unwittingly pushed his buttons.
What an extremely powerful revelation and a deep soul issue too, for I had to accept that whatever was going on inside the proprietor was actually going on inside me also.
Thereafter a little more work unraveling my inner child block and it became very clear to me that I’ve been all alone and craved companionship for as long as I can remember.
The reason for this, well throughout my entire mortality I’ve always been alone, yes I know lots of mortals and lots of mortals know me, however I only have three friends.
Three guys who’ve been by my side for the entirety of my journey, their names; “me, myself and I” three friends only who’ve cared enough to care about my souls well being.
The only three guys who’ve backed me to the hilt and the only three guys who when I’m at last freed from this dense and sickening planet will celebrate all my many victories.
Is it any wonder I’ve never really felt at home on this planet, or inclined towards group activity, still like all mortals there is a deep call in me to connection with other souls too.
Yet in my vivid awareness of my aloneness I now recognise and accept that these are old abuse and neglect wounds from this life and karmic energetic blocks from past lives.
All inner child wounds that have played their part in both brutalising and impoverishing the greater part of my mortality, is it any wonder that they crave and scream for healing?
I know now why I’ve been visiting that portal which for several weeks I’ve been struggling to understand, yet the draw was most overwhelming and equally perplexing.
For it was a call to heal the derivative of a raft of extraordinarily unique, yet eminently common co-dependencies and the reason why? Well we’re all part of the one anyway.
Nevertheless a pivotal point in my own evolution where I’m now proactively reclaiming my divine sovereignty, my personal power and my sense of entitlement and abundance.
Because I’m worth so much more than the continuous struggle that I’ve had to endure thus far, therein; it’s now my time to shine like the bright star I am and also to receive.
For its my time to stand tall and remember just who I am and above all things embrace and acknowledge the sheer power of and in my arduous [ shamanic healing journey ]
A traumatic and isolating journey which has forced me to face and defeat many fears and demons, all part of the eternal process of reclaiming my personal power and well-being.
Therein; I acknowledge that I’m a great soul and I too deserve great joy and fulfilment during my mortality, for that’s my divine rite, no if’s, no buts and certainly no maybes.
Yes its my divine rite to experience the abundance in [ my shamanic alchemy ] Amen
Only in Pure Reconciliation, Do We Release; All Our Inner Child Blocks
Therein; I accept and respectfully acknowledge that my inner child wisdom has been prompted of late because I have been working with a number of inner child remedies.
Equally I’ve also been working with a raft of karmic, divine harmony and rose remedies and the supplier of those remedies are Crystal Herbs click [ here ] to visit their website.
However probably the greatest gift that we all bring to our own personal healing is the ability to look beyond that which is hidden, for that is the way forward to real freedom.
That said; will I visit my burger van community again?, Highly unlikely but one never really knows for I have a great deal of work to do in healing all my inner child blocks.
What’s more and in unraveling why I’ve been going there I don’t need to go there anymore and anyway the energy’s changed and I’ve been given an opportunity to heal.
However it simply isn’t me to refuse to heal and it isn’t me to pretend to be who I’m not or indeed change my overall way of being warts and all for I refuse to dilute who I am.
Do I have a problem with the burger van proprietor? Absolutely not, good guy, great soul and without his and my own inner child issues neither of us could heal and evolve.
So here’s the question, where are you heading now Baz? Answer; who knows, all I know is that when spirit nudges resistance is futile and so my journey continues accordingly.
For I accepted many years ago that in all my many mortal imperfections there resides a great and powerful soul too, indeed a soul happy to walk towards its own eternal healing.
Simply because if I didn’t or hadn’t committed to that arduous mortal journey I’d simply be stagnating here and that’s something my timeless soul simply couldn’t countenance.
All that being said I’m confident that my drive to work upon and heal my inner child issues is synchronicity in full flow with the solar eclipse in Scorpio November 3rd 2013.
How do I know that? Well because I’m incredibly sensitive this game changing eclipse has already started impacting upon me i.e. lifting many veils and filling me with anxiety.
However if you’re wondering what on earth I’m on about, below is a video by astrologer by Bella Christina, outlining the game changing significance of this massive solar eclipse.
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Authors Concluding Notes
If there’s one thing this exercise showed me apart from unlocking the wisdom to my own inner child block, it’s that I’m a long way from that place of; [ "all and wholeness" ]
For if I were [ "all and whole" ] there would be no need or drive deep down within me for companionship for I would be unequivocally comfortable in and with myself.
That said and as we’re all simply work in progress in terms of [ "all and wholeness" ] I’m ever so inclined to cut my self some slack and really enjoy healing my inner child block.
For in acknowledging the call of my soul to heal, I’m confident; I’m on the right path, as for the generosity of soul I’ve experienced at my burger van portal, I’m forever grateful.
Its a very real place, visited by very real people, is it any wonder that I like so many more are drawn to that place and hopefully will continue to be drawn there to heal too. Amen
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Just so you know my “leading edge” shamanic teacher, supervisor and mentor is Briony Stott, click [ here ] to visit her website, a truly talented lady and a massive influence upon my own state of being.
Barry Hardy MSc, FBEng, FCMI, I.Eng, MIET, P.Eng, FSPE, MBIFM, F.I.Diag.Eng.
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