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I’m very much aware of living in, with and through the metaphor called; the dark night of the soul, having spent 11 years in absolute mortal despair, I firmly believe that I am blessed to have some how survived my own. Yet the thing that really puzzles me and even gets right up my nose at times, is how easily some mortals like to suggest that they’re in the midst of the same even when they’re probably only experiencing some form of cursory everyday stress. Yet the death and rebirth than one experiences as a result of the dark night of the soul process is like no other experience that any mortal has ever encountered before and certainly not something that they will probably repeat in one life time.
So let me be very clear here and I make no apology for this at all; living in or through a dark night of the soul is no club that I feel privileged to have been a part of having worked through my own. Neither is it anything that I can recommend as a must do in any mortals life passage curriculum vitae, such is the depravity of that hope sapping process.
You see; only those who have experienced such unbearable darkness and gut wrenching isolation during such torrid parts of their lives, truly understand the preposterous fragility of mortality in all of it’s majesty. Where sanity and the release from insanity are as far away from the incumbent than any innocent mortal has the capability to comprehend. Such is the wrath of this soul destroying and soul building conundrum.
I’m often asked how ones gets through ones own dark night of the soul and to be honest I don’t think any mortal can answer that question with any degree of assurance. For that is a place where nothing makes any sense and a place where the pits of despair simply consume the unfortunate on an almost minute by minute and week by week basis. Where the innocent or the fool desperately attempts to delude themselves into believing that things can’t possibly get any worse. Where each downward spiral into their own unique abyss of darkness, is simply eclipsed by the depravity of ever darker and ever deeper pits of despair further down the line.
Dark nights of the soul generally follow year upon year of despair and they arrive at that point where one faces up to ones own mortal fragility. It is that breaking point where one feels that they simply can’t take anymore and only those who have sat in that depraved place truly understand the isolation, the desperation and above all the heart wrenching sadness that engulfs ones entire reality.
The truth is I don’t know how I worked through my own dark night of the soul for my tools were nothing more than tenacity and a dogged determination to prove my critics wrong. A process in which a major part of me also consistently believed that we only get through such events in our lives if that’s what we’re here as mortals to do. Nevertheless I can tell you that many times as a mere mortal, my faith in my ability to see the process through simply evaporated with regularity every time a new challenging experience thrust itself upon me. I guess that’s why I lost my route map out, way back along the way and why in truth I think that’s easy to do when one is fighting for ones life; every second of every minute of every god awful day that we’re trapped in that place.
One thing for sure is that giving everything up to the universe was not a way of being or a way out of my despair that I could buy into at all. So much so that I frequently lost the plot with people articulating such rhetoric to me or quoting extracts from nonsensical books at my points of critical mass. Simply because I take such views as a complete and utter kop-out, disrespectful and uneducated view of what the sufferer is actually experiencing and hence simply a bastardisation of spiritual surrender. But more than that I find it highly insulting and whats more its my opinion that only an ignorant would use such statements to a fellow mortal in the midst of a physical, emotional and spiritual breakdown.
So much so that as some one who survived his own torrid dark night of the soul, I can nevertheless relate to the sense of isolation that many of my kindred souls find themselves dealing with right now. That’s why and in the greater part I have now turned my back on professional engineering etc, and therein spend my time helping people through they’re own dark night of the soul where I can. Simply because; I believe that’s what all healers were born to do as mortals here on earth and not simply here to offer quotes from nonsensical literature, whilst egocentrically massaging their own fragile ego.
I fervently believe that only those who have known such suffering can truly dip in and out of aquired learning as they guide a sufferer back into the light. That’s why I have nothing but utter contempt for those who hide behind nonsensical quotes whilst claiming to have their clients best interests at heart.
That’s why I always advise my clients to look deep into the soul of any mortal claiming that they can be of help, and thereafter only accept that support if their own higher self gives them the green light for go.
In the interim period ALL I would say to anyone who cares to read this simple little post is; stay well, stay safe and may your higher self always guide you with valour in all that you are as a mortal, Amen.
Best wishes
Barry Hardy MSc, FBEng, FCMI, I.Eng, MIET, P.Eng, FSPE, MBIFM, F.I.Diag.Eng, F.Inst.P.P., F.Inst.F.P.
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